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New Blog Name, New Post: Welcome Home

Welcome Back! That's to say I am back and hopefully for more than a day or two. I have some stuff swirling around and thought I might try to see if it comes out on the page similar to what is clattering around in my head. I have had quite an idle mind and body lately and, as you read recently, it is because of my time off from work, that usually has me gathering 20,000+ steps on my fitness tracker per day and leaves me exhausted physically and mentally after work. Often I go straight to see friends after work rather than home because I will pass out unless otherwise entertained like I have an automatic "sleep" button set when sitting down. It could be a lack of sleep, food, water, etc no doubt, but if I go home immediately I fall asleep and wake up late on the couch and then never fall asleep again.

So, being on vacation (stay-cation) has made my mind like an overripe banana, ready to mush up and be baked in some banana bread. I have completely changed my regular sleep pattern, leaving me even more out of sync and even nocturnal on some occasions. When I wake up, the little sunlight we have had in the darkest time of the year is shortened to about 3 hours! By the time I'm up and out of the house - if I get to that point at all - it's 2pm and when the sun sets at 4pm, perhaps it's making me a bit down in the dumps. Not a depression so to speak but rather boredom. I crave my days off when I'm working and was excited to do NOTHING when my time off was approaching, but trying to motivate myself to do anything is difficult, to say the least.

During this downtime, I have been waiting for a call from my surgeon - news of when my carpal tunnel surgery will take place. I broke my wrist almost a year ago and have had some unfortunate complications resulting in numbness in my fingers from a compressed median nerve in my right hand. During the diagnostic testing, Electromyography (EMG), they found I have Carpal Tunnel Syndrome in both hands, my right hand being more severe. The surgery on my right wrist is labeled as urgent and I am on a cancellation list, so a call is imminent. In the meantime, I go for walks, meet friends for NFL  games, hang out with my partner, and generally stare at my cat wondering how she does this every day.

It's winter, 2 weeks away from Christmas, 3 weeks away from the end of my vacation and here I am, back to writing in my blog, wondering if this is really just a personal journal or something people really care about. Since I started this writing journey, my environment has changed. Still living in the same apartment, my pets, partners, friends, jobs, furniture, and even my view have all changed. I realize that my habits don't change much and that I am most comfortable when I am in a routine. I think I thrive when I am challenged but the thought of it all makes me shrink back into my cave. I also am known to ramble, as I am doing right now.


Why have I returned? Why have I changed the name of my blog? Why have I decided to bore people with my own inner thoughts, no matter how off-kilter they may be? I recently enjoyed an interview online with a local broadcaster speaking about the evolution of podcasts and radio, and how talk radio (my favourite) was becoming extinct. He spoke of the beauty of radio and why it is so very different than podcasts, the secret ingredient being the live-on-air aspect, and the interaction with the listener live. He explained it in a way that made me "light up" inside as if he shared the secret recipe to Grandma's apple pie. This made me immediately remember the feeling of finalizing a blog and pushing the "publish" button. And just like that! My blog page has reappeared with a new paint job and renovation. Hopefully, I can unravel what is knotted in this banana bread, and talk about some things that might interest others.

If you have just returned yourself, checking in to see if I have survived the pandemic, or you are just passing by or even were attracted by a link I shared or a label - Hello! Enjoy some of my past entries, and feel free to comment, wave back, and share a 👍 or 👎 in the comment section. I will be notified immediately. Suggest a topic, ask me a question, and please leave SPAM in the tin, as I prefer real ham. 

Have a great day and I'll fill in another page of Jenobi's World soon.

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